I want my children to be "good", to be respectful and to listen. If you are a parent, you know this can be a daunting task, especially when they have siblings to fight with. When they don't make wise choices, I tell them how they should behave...in a sense, like pasteurization, I want to wipe out their bad behavior...I mean, who wants to have spoiled
nuts kids?! But, there are times that I don't talk to them in love....I talk AT them...showing no patience, no peace...just frustration and anger. Sometimes I say things I don't mean and I'm ashamed of myself... it's like word puke coming out of my mouth and I can't stop once I start. So, in my attempt to make them "better" behaved, I've actually been making them worse by not showing them the grace that God shows me everyday. I never imagined parenting would be so hard....that these beautiful little beings could make me laugh with indescribable joy and cry with my face in a pillow all in one day. They are my everything, and I want to build them up, to give their sweet souls peace..not tear them down because they didn't brush their teeth long enough or pick up their ten million Lego's on the floor.
God, please forgive me for not taking every opportunity to show them your love and mercy. Help me to daily speak love into their lives and be an example of patience and grace. I don't want to just focus on their outward actions; I want to focus on the state of their hearts. Amen.