Blessings Redefined....

Have you ever driven by something a million times and never noticed it? It's like one day it just catches your eye and you think, "How did I not see that before?"... Well, that happened to me today, but it wasn't with an actual "object"...it was with a prayer.
I often pray a simple prayer for God to bless me, so I can bless others. Sounds a little selfish, huh...kinda like, "Dear God, make me happy and I'll make someone else happy too!" But, as I was driving home from the store, I prayed that same prayer, "Dear Lord, bless me so I can bless others"...and I heard God reply, "I am and have been blessing you this whole time." "What?? are you kidding me? I'm not feeling blessed, I'm not being showered with goodness (although, this Carmel mocha from McDonald's is helping me feel a bit better...), I'm not seeing rainbows, and I certainly don't feel like smiling. Then, tell me, how am I being blessed??"
Let me just say, if you ask God a question...you can't be afraid of the answer. He gently pointed out to me that just because I'm not feeling the "joys" of blessings, it doesn't mean that I'm not blessing others. We all go through high and low points in our lives, but have you ever considered that the hard times in your life will somehow help you to bless another? Maybe you've had a miscarriage and you just can't understand why it happened, but then a year later you find yourself holding the hand of a young mother who just lost her baby. Maybe you've lost a loved one to cancer and you find yourself being the shoulder your friend cries on when the doctors tell her she has stage three cancer. Maybe you're the person who was abused growing up and you find yourself sharing your story to others that are where you used to be.....
During hard times, it's not easy to see how you are being blessed, but it doesn't mean that God isn't going to take your pain and your struggles, and be able to help someone else who is hurting, someone else who is going through what you already went through.
So, am I still going to pray for God to bless me, so I can bless others?? The answer is yes, because if just one person is helped as a result of my suffereing... then it's all worth it.

Laura Story's song, "Blessings", is the perfect example of what I needed to hear. (please pause the blog music to your right before you push play)


2 comments:

  1. I don't think you realize just how big of a blessig even just you smile is to people.... It is so kind and honest and as long as I've known you it has been! I had always looked up to you becaue you were just you and no one else and that you was just soooooo excepting! It was not a hard thing to like you Nicole and that is a blessing to me. Also your photography is inspireing.... more than that.... it is true YOU! and because of that it is some of the best I have ever seen and I hope I can evoke that emotion in my own photography. <3

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  2. I tried to post this song from Jesus culture here but don't know if it will show up correctly. I'll add the link below if it does not work.

    The words talk about "what you pray I pray", which I think directly refers to what you were talking about above. God will use you to bless others, even though sometimes we don't feel his direct blessings. A lot of times I get Joy or feel blessed because I am capable of blessing others.
    I pray that you learn how to pray for yourself and others, and truly feel and know his blessings that surround you.

    Here is what Jesus prayed for us, maybe this will help you pray like him
    John 17:19-21 (New International Version)

    19 For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified.

    Jesus Prays for All Believers

    20 “My prayer is not for them alone. I pray also for those who will believe in me through their message, 21 that all of them may be one, Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me.

    Here is the link for the youtube video: super powerful.
    http://youtu.be/c2U3PU-E32E

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